My Castle, my life part two

Actually lets forget about xmas. Even though I got to go home and spend it with my family, it was pretty uneventful. I got some great gifts, saw my mates and was annoyed by my great aunt. other than that, it was nice to have a few days off.
The only bummer with visiting Canberra, is that every now and then I wonder if maybe I should move home. The fact of the matter is I could be doing what I'm doing here in Melbourne back at home, while being surrounded by the people who love me most. I only moved away because I wanted to be an actress, and thats not really happening. In fact I'm not really trying.
And that brings me to my next problem...what the fuck am I doing here? I gave myself a year off from dating and worrying about the whole acting thing. I needed the break from both, but I'm having trouble getting back in the game...on both counts.
If I were in Canberra I'd be hanging out with my sis and my girlfriends, getting out and doing things. But I'm here, living this life I created and not entirely enjoying it. I love Melbourne, but does it love me? I feel stuck in retail because I don't have the skills to do anything else, and I don't want to get yet another job that I can't stand.
On the man front...well there are no men. I haven't dated in a million years, and the last bloke sniffing around was my ex who remembered why he didn't like me. I don't go out because I have no single friends to go out with, and the friends I do have are young and coupled up, or married with children. So that leaves me hanging out at The King Of Tonga with all the regular crew, who are all lovely blokes but no options there.
You see my problem(s) don't you?
With all this swishing around in my head, I am also making plans. I'll start teaching dancing again at a scout hall every monday night, I'll start taking drama classes at "the nash" again, I'll train myself on computers in order to get a new job as a p.a somewhere fab, and somehow I will make myself open to meeting a new bloke...even though there are no men.
In the mean time I'm feathering my nest. Unpacking, putting things up that I haven't bothered with before, and generally enjoying being a homebody (thats a trap). I went couch shopping today and actually found one I liked, but it was $200 out of my price range. It doesn't sound like much, but I'm using dad's money and I can't bear to ask for more. So, I continue on my quest...and I'm kinda loving it.
So I guess things aren't so bad. Lots to think about (as usual), lots to plan, lots to buy and lots to do.
Perhaps it'll be a good year...

Cross your fingers for me... and Happy New Year.